Sunday morning

It's Sunday morning...I am sitting in my flat here in Slovakia. Had my coffee, did the dishes, listened to a North Point sermon online and was attempting to have my "quiet time". Have been seeing some cool new things in the Bible lately but definitely noticing my tendency to get distracted...to have prayer time that ends up with me jumping up to take care of something "urgent"... Jesus has changed my life, I know he is good, I know that he is the answer to all the questions, I know I am in Slovakia because of him. But still my flesh is so weak and I wonder why simple things like prayer are so "difficult"

reading the book of Acts lately. what did the early church look like? what happened in those early days of our church that drew THOUSANDS of people at one time come to faith in Christ? What was it that Peter and John and Paul had that was so POWERFUL, so attracting, so irresistable that people said "Yes" right then and there? At one point in the very early days of the church Peter and John healed a man, giving credit to Christ. They were put into prison for the act and questioned about the authority they had to do such things. So Peter and John (filled with the Holy Spirit) told them...that the authority came from Christ. That he was the the Messiah sent once for all. Acts 4:13 says, "When they saw the COURAGE of Peter and John and reallized that they were UNSCHOOLED, ORDINARY men they were astonished and they took note that these men HAD BEEN WITH JESUS." Their lives, and characters and abilities were so completely transformed by being with Jesus that they ASTONISHED those around them. Amazing to think that being with Jesus could transform me.

I read this and I think, "what stands out about my character that demonstrates that I have been with Jesus?" What is radical and different about who I am that will draw people to God? How can I speak so boldly and sincerely that the irresistabilty of the truth of Jesus will shine through and overshadow me? Is it possible to "be with Jesus" in the same way that the disciples did? I want to be transformed by my relationship with Jesus. i don't want it to be just a fact about me...I want it to be the most obvious thing about me.