home is a fluid concept

I should probably say something here about the fact that i haven't updated this blog in forever. But such is life, y'all know I get lazy or bored or distracted or kidnaped my aliens or whatever the latest excuse is. I was pleasantly surprised while I was home to hear how many of you are reading this blog. i really thought no one was paying attention...so I pouted and stopped writing. But now that i know I have a few of you I will be more motivated.

Being back in the states was really good. I had so much fun seeing friends and family and eating foods I love and driving a car again. I didn't think much about life here in Slovakia or what it would be like when I returned. I was just enjoying my time in the good old US of A. I did see that "home" is a fluid concept. We all think of different things when we hear that word. Home is where your heart is...you can't go home again...this is my home away from home etc. Some people define home as where their stuff is, or where someone they love is. For some people it's anywhere mom or dad is. some people never feel "home". Some of us believer that this earth is definitely not our home, and that we will only really be HOME when this whole thing ends and we are reunited with the Father who made us and prepared an eternal home for us. When I am in Slovakia there are things I miss about my American home...and vice versa. My friend Paige calls it "a permanent homesickness" which makes sense. i think that no matter where I am from here on out I will always be missing some place or some people. Thinking that I will never be without this sense of "missing" is kind of depressing. But in a way it reminds me that I really am living in a temporary home right now...in the Old Testament it's referred to as a tent. Right now I live in a tent and I can dress it up and buy lots of cool stuff from IKEA and hang photos on the wall but so matter where it is...it isn't REALLY home. See, home is where my creator lives. Home is where the Lord is. And at some point I get to leave the tent and head for the mansion God has prepared for me. I don't really get that or understand how it works of what it looks like exactly. But to know that at some point the homesickness will leave permanently. What a concept.