Wednesday, December 21, 2005

the same...only different

It's funny...but some things don't really change. In Atlanta I complained about spending 2 hours in the car every day. In Slovakia I complain about walking 2 hours a day in the snow. In Atlanta during Christmas I was irritated and depressed about being rushed and having to deal with all the holiday busyness. In Slovakia I am irritated and depressed that it doesn't feel like Christmas and my busyness has nothing to do with the holiday season. What I am trying to say here is that there are times where I know my attitude about things hasn't changed in the slightest in my year here. That whole "be thankful in everything" is hard to do sitting in traffic every single day on my way to work and it's hard to do walking half an hour in the snow every single day on my way to work. It's hard when I am so overwhelmed with all the people around me, and when I am so lonely I feel like I am the only one in the world. Which really is kind of the point in a lot of this...being able to be thankful regardless of circumstances. There are always circumstances that aren't fun, or aren't what we want or what we expect but it's how we respond during those circumstances that tell us who we really are.

so anyway, just some thoughts on this random wednesday night. I had kind of a crummy day...one of those where if something could go wrong it did (couldn't get the printer to work in the office...took the wrong bus and wasted an hour etc. etc.). and I am really missing home this holiday season. it's the first time in a really long time that I am homesick which makes me cranky.

more to come I am sure

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Saw your profile in the North Point newsletter this week. Spent an hour or so reading through your blog. WOW! Sounds amazing and life changing...for the youth of Slovakia and you. Hang in there. Thanks for doing what you do.

Leah said...

Thanks so much for your honest entry, Amy. Can certainly relate to those feelings...felt them today actually as I was stuck in traffic and so wished that I could just WALK to the store! Have to say I'm not missing the 30 minute walk to work in the snow, though.....To encourage you, though, when you do find yourself stateside for Christmas, you'll still find yourself wishing that you could somehow be in Slovakia for Christmas as well. Savor these moments--you will one day treasure your holidays overseas with your "adopted family". See you Tuesday!!! Love you!!